Commitment

"Let this be the first rule, shared by all of you, that no one should weaken in the firmness of his commitment to the way of life he has chosen. He should strive always to increase his commitment to this undertaking as if he were just starting out, especially, because human life, compared to eternity, is very short."

Anthony of the Desert

I sensed the fatigue of my eagerness. I used to be very excited about anything I wanted to do especially the Catholic spirituality. Now, I am feeling lethargic. Perhaps it is true that the feelings can change. But a scary thought forced me to stand back and look at the meaning of commitment: What if it happens in the marriage too? What if I feel sluggish about my commitment to my to-be-spouse after few years' marriage? And the same for the marriage with God. Oh no, I do not dare to move one beyond this wild running thought.

But I am beginning to think that the commitment is also the decision. Once I make the decision, I have to stand firm and carry it out no matter what. I recently met the couple. The wife is at least six years older than the husband. Now, they just welcomed their few weeks old daughter into this world. Their steadfast love is admirable. What inspired me is their decision to commit themselves to each other. It is the same for me to commit all my life to God alone. Once I have decided to serve Him with all my heart, mind and strength, I have to commit all my life to Him. It is the same way for studies and work. Thankfully, now my eagerness comes back.