Being as busy as a bee, I was hoping that it would help to keep me away from being tempted to sin. Although it worked to the large extent, I am still weak and fragile which the evil can break with just one hit. Of course, it's very dangerous when the feeling turns into the boredom. Not long ago, I was watching very short film where Jesus was being crucified. As Jesus was suffering all kinds of pains, the emotion of sorrow stirred up in my heart and the tears were streaming down my cheeks. Jesus never failed to spice my life up. Even when I was a child which meant I was too young to understand the meaning of life, I never failed to cry at the scene of crucified Jesus. I wished that everyone especially my family would believe in Jesus and would be converted to be Catholics. By then, we would have peace and love within us. Now, I'm swimming around the sea of emotions because I sinned not long ago. I hope that it would be different from last Monday onwards. I admit that God had changed me a lot. I also agree that the sufferings, hardships and experiences were the part of God's plans. Without them, we would never grow up and become mature. I really am glad that I was born deaf although it had often put me in the disadvantage. Otherwise, I would never understand the love.
Father, forgive me for my sins. In the name of Jesus Christ, have mercy on me. I should love you above all the things. With your help, I firmly intend to do penance, to sin no more and to avoid whatever leads me to sin. I must remember our Saviour, Lord Jesus Christ suffered and died for us on the cross. Holy Spirit, help me. I ask this through Christ our Lord. Amen.
All right. I have been inspired a lot to work harder to achieve my desires. I believe that I would be able to survive in Japan after the graduation in two years' time because I know God would be there with me! (^_^) Alleluia forever and ever! Amen.
