Deny thyself, take up the cross and follow Jesus.

I understand everyone has their own cross to carry and follow Jesus. But no one ever has thought of the cross in the priesthood. Perhaps they thought it would be too heavy for them because there are much hardship and sufferings in the way of the priesthood. For me, I really want to sacrifice for God and gather His people for Him. I am not sure whether it is my calling but I want to study in priesthood.

"An unmarried man concerns himself with the Lord's work, because he is trying to please the Lord." (1 Cor 7:32)

For Jesus said,

"I am the good shepherd. As the Father knows me and I know the Father, in the same way I know my sheep and they know me. And I am willing to die for them. There are other sheep which belong to me that are not in this sheep pen. I must bring them too; they will listen to my voice, and they will become one flock with one Shepherd." (John 10:14 - 16)

Those verses captured my heart and haunted my mind. I had the rite of acceptance the day before. I received the crucifix and bible. I was so happy because I finally got accepted into the Christ after the period of waiting for 3 years. I remembered that my hands and legs kept shaking while I was receiving the bible from the priest at the altar because of overwhelming excitement filling my whole body. Afterwards, I headed towards another church to meet the deaf community. After some times, I followed four hearing people after the group being dispersed for home. Just outside the food court, we were engaging in the conversation. Out of blue, a tanned man in his 30s, greeted me, signing the hands in the air. A complete stranger. As we found out, he was half hearing and half deaf. But he seemed to be like professional in the sign language. He had joined the deaf Christian group for some times but left because he was not invited to join them in their activities like watching movie, shopping etc. He had been waiting for long time in vain. So he decided to leave. He and I were in the same situation. We introduced him to our deaf community. Suddenly, it hit on my mind. God was giving me a chance to evangelize him since he was the lost sheep. There are many sheep out there waiting for the Lord. So I must work hard on my faith to gather the deaf people for the Lord.