High impart from the session

After a night movie three days ago, I was invited by two church friends to the prayer group organised by Youth Arise Ministry. Its activities are very similar to Charismatic Renewal Group. So next morning, I made myself ready and present for the activity after the morning mass. It consumed a lot of time yet it never failed to bore us except some of us were little tired from last day's activities. However, I learnt interesting lessons from the session. I was really glad to attend it. Otherwise, I would not be able to cherish the moments with God a lot. I learnt how to discern the heavenly messages signaled to me. As well, I was forced to think about my future planned by God. I thought of teaching the deaf children in Japan since there is no job vacancy in my hometown. But I have to rely on Holy Spirit and obey the commandments of God in order to success. It is more important to have faith in Him because He knows all my desires. Just have faith and miracles will be given.

"Real openness to the Holy Spirit is your strength and your special treasure but this gift from God is also a fragile treasure which you must take special care of." In order to effectively communicate with God, one must be effectively detached from all things and persons. Three ways to develop the discernment: prayer, reflecting scriptures and working & suffering for the Kingdom. One also has to be sensitive to the gentle promptous of the Holy Spirit. In order to have strong foundation with God, one has to hear and understand words, treasure words in heart, obey & act on words and finally bear fruits aplenty. Love is the sole motivation to listen and act on His words. The biggest obstacle to obedience to words of God is self-centred pride.

Road of Holiness

"There will be a highway there, called "The Road of Holiness." No sinner will ever travel that road; no fool will mislead those who follow it.

No lions will be there; no fierce animals will pass that way. Those whom the Lord has rescued will travel home by that road.

They will reach Jerusalem with gladness, singing and shouting for joy. They will be happy forever, forever free from sorrow and grief."

(Isaiah 35:8-10)

It was the part of yesterday's reading of the gospel. It has been inspiring me to the large extent that I poured out all my hope in God. It made me ready to give up everything and take up the cross and follow Jesus. My heart was stirring with the delight when I read, "They will be happy forever, forever free from sorrow and grief." It was because I thought that the world was too dangerous and influencing that it could chase God's love out of it. I am wondering whether I will meet the conservative person who share the same thought. Sometimes, I wish that I would meet the certain person who share the same thought so that we can help each other and pray together. But life is unfair. So it is ideal for me to stay independent.

Deep thoughts and holidays

It has been a while since my last post. I was so engrossed in my school works and trainings. I had sometimes been playing computer games with few classmates too. Well, it is time for me to abort those hobbies because I have been neglecting the prayers and trainings. I just finished the examinations. So I must become more serious now because I have seven months left to the graduation show. There will be a lot of works to do for the final year project. I am afraid that I must change my usual self in order to focus on my spirituality and school projects. Hmm... I think I have become anti-social or something because I realized that I had been so lonely those days. But I value the real friendships. Not the "false" friends whom you can find and add randomly in those popular websites like Friendster and Facebook etc. Neither the ones you can befriend anyhow. Maybe I can say that I value the trust and honesty. I am not sure whether I got this genre from my parents as they have few friends too. And I am not sure whether it is right or wrong. I do admit that I am feeling very uncomfortable with the feeling of being lonely. But I am afraid that I have to stop helping my classmates so that they can stand on their own feet. I will lend a hand when I think I am needed.

There is a saying, "Love is unconditioned. So you can't say, "I love you because..." Love has no reason. Love has no condition. Love comes from God." From this point, I was forced to rethink about my expectations of the dream girl. Yes, it is true that everyone cannot control the love and treat their respective lovers as the objects. But I am very afraid of the divorce as I have my own limits. My parents are separated although they share the same roof. My mum said they were divorced but my father said it was not true. So I have to be picky about my dream girl. But this girl has been amazing me in some ways though she is not my perfect girl yet. I cannot stop the haunting thoughts of her flashing in my mind whenever I go to bed. She is nice and mature in her own way. I like her but at the same time I want her to meet her Mr Right. However, sometimes I would feel a bit jealous whenever I see her with a boy. Is it unconditioned love?

Paint of love

Yesterday morning, I had the adventure with the group of the youth. We were having the project to paint the old folks' homes. Six of them. It was really exciting and very satisfying because we were like the angels who transformed the people's lives as we painted their old homes. After the work, their homes are like the new ones. I really thanked God for the chance to paint and share this great love. I had learnt the lesson from the experience. We really need to clean our homes sometimes if we can. Otherwise, we would attract the massive dirt and even enormous armies of the insects. I saw at least six layers filled with the insects and dirts in the old folk's home. Another lesson is that we need to be more active to reach out to the needy and help as much as we can. I cannot help myself thinking about the African children's situations as they are starving everyday. Not forgetting the unfortunate victims. I am hoping that Jet Li's charity foundation would grow stronger and help more victims in no time. Anyway, it is a small step. I will definitely help out as much as I can. Maybe I could become famous and set up another charity foundation like Jet Li after the graduation.

Blessed be God forever and ever

Three days ago, my heart jumped with joy when I received the letter. It stated that I would not need to take Singapore Arts Scenes and electives for next semester. I was one of few guys who had such a privilege! That means I can have more time on my hands! Oh, praise the Lord! Lord Jesus, you have my thanks forever! Yesterday, I received the phone message from a friend. She told me that her office was giving away the art materials as it was going to renovate. My jaws dropped by then. When I reached the place and she explained everything, I was overwhelmed by the shock and joy. I could take any art materials as much as I like such as 50 crayon boxes and so on. Oh my God, You never fail to amaze me! I could not ask anything more than giving my life to You, Lord! Yes, there were so much to take and transport. I was already perspiring in the halfway. Fortunately, God knew my needs and sent me my friends to help out without me asking around. I really felt like crying this time. My God, You are still so good to me even though I had sinned against You. No word could not express my thanks and praise for You! `All my life, hope and dreams are yours, Lord Jesus now and forever! Amen.

"Yet I will rejoice in the Lord; I will exult in the [victorious] God of my salvation!" - Habakkuk 3:18 (AMP)

Fall of King of Pop

When the title, "Michael Jackson died" at MSN website flashed at the moment I clicked the Internet icon, I was calm but I could not believe my eyes. So I went on and read the news. By then, I was still calm yet shocked after confirming it. I carried out my usual activities afterwards. But when I was starting on the bike machine in the gym, I saw the news regarding the death of Michael Jackson on the television. The flow of sorrow was being poured upon me and strike my heart of emotions. Yes, I'm the fan of the King of Pop although I cannot hear well, because of his cool dancing moves. I was expected to see him in person when I start my career later on. But now, no more. He may be gone but his music lives on forever. Goodbye, Michael Jackson.

Reflection from Gospel

I recently came to this interesting point from the reflection. I thought that I might want to share it with you guys as it inspired me a lot to discipline myself to pray."For the gate is narrow and the road is hard that leads to life, and there are few who find it." ~ Matthew 7:14

*Taken from the Shalom (Pg 211)*

- The Way of the Gospel is a guaranteed road to fulfilment, peace and hapiness but it is challenging. The wide road where one does anything he/she likes is very attractive and would seem to be a recipe for fulfilment but experience shows that it can lead only to disillusionment and deep unhappiness.

Doesn't it make sense, is it? =D Hope it helps you to the large extend! God bless.

PS: Be happy all the time as you can for you have only one life! Cheers!

Time to move on

My mind had been tasting the sweetness of the comfortable holidays for weeks. My body had been cuddling the warmest love of the bed for weeks. My stomach had been wolfing down on the delicious pleasure of the food for weeks. It is time to move out of the comfort zone although the holidays have not ended yet. My desires are burning fiercely at this hour. I need a lot of strict disciplines to lead the holy life. Maybe I am hoping to meet someone who can help me. I must put more efforts in the religion practices. Moreover, I must put more effort in sculpturing my body.

What a break

I am finding myself enjoying the dream of the holidays. I guess that the school had torn myself apart. Fortunately, I survived and recuperated in the midst of the healing power of the dream. Yes, my relationship with that girl I was talking about, is improving but sadly there is invisible line drawn between us. I'm afraid that our cheeky and funny conversation will be gone forever. That is unless she chooses to start all over again. But I do not have to worry because we will meet new people in our social circles respectively. Yes, I'm letting her go and giving her my blessing in whatever she does in her own way. Because I'm feeling better whenever I meet new people and so on. There are many things I have to learn for my future. So the relationships except with God are no longer important. I'm sure He will send me the one who is worth of my love. I guess some are lucky to meet the important persons in their lives.

I just received the school result from the letterbox a few days ago. The results are still the same although I had taken so many electives. But at least I have equipped the knowledge and experience which might be important in the future. So I will have to work hard because I'm going to have the final year from July onwards. I'm afraid that also means I have to walk out of my school gang which was formed unconsciously because I want to spend my time wisely.

For other activities, I hope that I can achieve at least some of my plans such as the oil paintings, cooking and so on. Yes, I think it will be better. Of course, I will expect any failure on the way. Wish me good luck and strength. Cheers!~

Wild Thoughts

Although I am tired and my eyes are heavy enough for bedtime, I cannot pamper myself to sleep due to the wild thoughts rushing through my mind. The girl is still there haunting me. Rambo, the new arcade game is also rushing through my brain. I think I have found new way to make me sleep better - That is jogging. It really works to make me sleep well at night. But I cannot rely on it everyday because of muscle sores. I need rest to grow my muscles. I was carefree in the past. But now, I have transformed into the self worrying type. How troublesome it is. I hope that the next month adventures will clear my thoughts and mind.

Time to be serious

Finally, the images in my head are getting less active and no longer disturbing. Why the fuss over one girl whereas there are so many girls who may be compatible and even better out there? I must grasp the memory of my dream girl. I can see my biceps are getting bigger. I'm confident that I'm going to be macho soon. Mm.. My spirituality is getting better too. However, I must be aware of the temptations and pits out there.

Feeling vexed

I do not believe that I'm in love with my good friend because she is not my cup of tea and also not compatible for me. But I'm still feeling vexed and stressed no matter what. I think I better go out and work out harder to exhaust myself so that I can sleep better. Not forgetting, I must devote myself to the religion, arts and sports. I must remind myself not to involve in the romance till oversea. My God, please comfort me. Amen.

Holidays

Finally, the stress has disappeared in my path. The long break is opening up to me now. I guess that the stress has clouded my judgements and myself that I became hungry for the love. So I hope that I would regain the good friend back soon. It must be great because I can work out as much as I desire now.

What is love?

The images of this girl who has been my good friend kept flashing in my head. My instinct keeps telling me that I'm having the feelings for her. How could it be? She has already her steady love. It is really complicated. There is no way that I would fall for the local girl. I just want to have the good relationship with her as if we are siblings. However, it reminded me of my former friend whom I forced myself to forget long time ago. We first started off as the acquaintances. Then, friends. Next, classmates. Our bonds were so strong that we would kept chatting with each other about everything often. We were so close that our homeroom teacher sometimes commented that we would give same response at same time and even shared the same thoughts. Then the seed of love was planted in our relationship without our knowledge. I recalled telling her first that I liked her after she wore the new glasses and I found her pretty. But I did not have strong feeling for her as I was still seeing her as my best friend. However, I found another girl (Let's call her B) whom I fell in love with at the first sight. So I first confessed to B that I liked her very much. After some times, we finally got into the serious relationship. However, we were unable to get close to each other as we were too young and had limited freedom except we could only chat or write letter to each other. Then, I later found out that my good friend fell in love with me according to our mutual friend (I was not sure whether it was true because I didn't see any clue from her and she refused to tell me.) Well, I did trying to clarify with her but I did not get much information. Otherwise, we would be a couple by now! Later, misunderstanding came and shook our relationship and we no longer became best friends. Sooner, I chose to end the relationship with B because I didn't have confidence in it as sometimes, when I tried to get closer with her, she would avoid me like the plague.

Some years later, I received the SMS out of blue. It was the acquaintance of mine who was the close friend of my former friend (Let's call A.) She said that A wanted to patch up with me because of God. She was too afraid to approach me for forgiveness because I might be fierce to her. It was really stupid move because I felt that she was not sincere. But I let it go because I thought it might be good to regain the old best friend and I was starting to forgive others who had hurt me before. I tried to chat with her like the old times but our conversation would cut short as she kept saying, "I have nothing to say." What is the meaning of it? I could not see any sincerely approach from her. So I decided to walk out of our so called relationship since she took it lightly. It was indeed fortunate of me not to have any courtship with her as she was indecisive herself and too materialistic.

I'm not sure whether I'm ready for the serious relationship although I have the urge to have one. I just want to have the only one who will accompany me in my lifetime. No long string of ex-girlfriends for me. Hopefully, I'm having no more illusion of my current good friend from now onwards.

Facing the Giants

After watching the "Facing the Giants", I found myself grasping the feeling of inspiration. It was indeed breath taking and exciting. I was made to reflect what I had done in the past and I was determined to go back to the holy life I used to practise before. I hope that I can survive the back-breaking period of the assessments with God's help. Then, afterwards, I'll make sure that I keep walking on the narrow path.

Mental illness

I have been living with my family since the young age. There is my aunt sharing the same house with us. Yes, she's been unemployed for ages. We tried to get her the job so that she will not be a burden to us. But she did not want to work. Instead, she depended on my father. It is noted that she has the mental illness. She got this illness when my grandfather locked her up after she tried to get into the boy-girl relationship at young age. That is what I heard from my mother. She has three siblings including my father if i'm correct. Although my father has the kind heart to take in (His other siblings refused to take her in as she is lazy.), he should spare a thought for me. Would I be in the danger when I am alone with my aunt and her illness acts up? Although she did not harm me till today, there are times she scared me out of my life. Yesterday, she behaved strange. When I met her after I came out of my room, she looked weird. That was when I became frightened and returned to my room immediately. After I locked the door, she kept banging the door. That was not one time but three times. I did not know why she wanted to come to my room. It happened in the past too.

I am really very disappointed when we have no choice because I want to do well in the studies. There is no way that I can study better in my room (In the past, I was living in the master bedroom with my mother.) Yes, people did laughing at me for sharing the bedroom with my mother. I wish I could explain it to my teachers. But I don't trust them at all. Please pardon me for pouring out my anger in this writing post.

New lesson in the relationship

From her conversation, I know that she was not taking my words seriously but even treated it as the jokes. It was not first time yet I failed to notice it. Even the same for the Kukup trip. She did not believe me when I told her that she was having the seizure until she visited the doctors. I should not talk to her much because she was very lazy. That is why she gave the excuses that she could not do the hard works. I wonder whether it is the good choice to work with her in the new studio. I doubt that she can survive the job despites she claimed that she understands how difficult it would be. But at least I understand how important Christ is to me. I'll NEVER let go of my relationship with God when I start to go back and practise the holy life next month.

Happy Easter Day

Lord Jesus was resurrected three days later after his crucifixion. It showed that God has the powers over the death. So Christ is definitely our hope and answer. So I'll go back to my former activities where I used to go to the church daily. Now, I realize that I do not need to be perfect in the school and life but rather perfect in the faith and love towards God. Perhaps it was a mistake to take three electives in the school. But at least it makes me realize how important the Christ is to me. So from next month onwards, I'll be spending more time in Christ so that I can prepare myself better for the missions when I turn out to be the adult next year. Not forgetting, I'll put more efforts in the gym as I choose the sport and arts to be my careers.

Good Friday

It was in the afternoon when my mother drove me to the church. I was attending the Stations of the Cross and the afterwards mass alone. I admit that I was having difficulties in absorbing God's words in my heart because the man who was in front of me, seemed to be restless as he kept swaying himself, distracting my attention. He seemed to be unaware of me as he kept swaying towards me. He bumped into me sometimes. At least ten times as I recalled. There was a lot of space in front of him whereas there was little space between us. Another reason is that I did not pray a lot for long time till today. The school works took away a lot of time in my schedule. If my school had put in the Fine Arts in the cross disciplinary registration, I would never be in difficult position by now. But in my second thought, perhaps it was a good choice because I'm experiencing how Jesus felt when he was carrying his cross to the Calvary. Hopefully, I can find Him during this period.

My thoughts

It was my birthday two days ago. Of course, no one knew except my godfather and mother because I kept it the secret. I did not know why I rather feel uncomfortable in telling everyone about my birthday. My godfather was the first person to wish me happy birthday. Naturally, I was not surprised as my godmother (That is my godfather's wife.) was also having the birthday on the same day as mine. Lastly, my mother bought the cake and gave me the red packet of money. Although she was nice and gave me those things, I was not really happy because I saw how big our gap is. Our gap is so big that I cannot be sure when it will close. She did not know that I did not like the chocolate cake but rather dark chocolate one. For my father, of course, he did not know because we never celebrate our occassions at home. Not even one since my birth.

What went wrong with my family? If my parents had not fought over the matter of money, would I be here? If my grandparents had been wise and did not object against my aunt, my aunt would never suffer mental illness. By then, would I be happy child now? I wish that the Lord would be here and talk to me as my friend and brother because I was not well trained in my speech. No one except the Lord understands me. Although I started talking to my mother now, I felt that she did not understand me completely like my father.

A short reflection

After the unexpected and short conversation with my classmate, I realized that I did not go to the church often. Much less. I also saw that I was much obessed in the earthly values than the heavenly values. I was very concerned about how people treated me instead of worrying about my relationship with God. My family kept on worrying and disturbing me even after my grandmother's death. I wish I could move out and stay somewhere where I can spend more time with God. But unfortunately, I do not have any financial support. I also noticed how my relationship with others are getting worse and worse. I'm sad and disappointed at my family's situation as they still do not believe in Catholicism. I wish that I will meet the neighbour who lives near my home and share the same faith soon.

Rest in peace

I was working when I received the SMS from my mother last Sunday. It read that my grandmother just passed away. I was struck with the sorrow. So I attended her funeral wake last Wednesday and Thursday to honor her. Although I was feeling a bit uncomfortable as they performed the chinese ritual, I did my best to follow the instruction as required in the process. However, I found myself seeing Lord Jesus most of time. Yes, I was praying to Him for my grandmother. So I was not affected by the grief but was filled with hope that my grandmother may be pardoned and going to the heaven where she can see Him. I'm determined to work harder now. I certainly hope that my family will convert to Catohlism one day.

Unconditioned love

When my mother told me that my grandmother was in the hospital as she did not feel well and even was on the verge of the death, my heart was struck with the grief. I was fighting against the tears in my eyes. It is something I cannot explain of. I do not have strong relationship with my grandmother as we never talk to each other although we had chatted very little due to our language barrier. Yet when I stepped into the ward room, my tears started to flow uncontrollably. When my eyes met her eyes, I saw the tears in her eyes. I tried to speak but I could not. So I could only hold her hand as if it was my treasure. I wish I knew the Chinese language right now.

What a busy life!

Whoosshh! Finally, I have the chance to write down the blog. I'm not feeling excited about the study trip to Kukup in Malaysia at all. But at least I can draw and paint some pictures over there! Hoepfully, I will be very productive and hardworking. *laugh* But what is annoying me is the people's attitude towards me. Usually, they were so friendly to me. But now, they act as if they have something against me. I guess now, their true colours are revealed. Well, I can forgive them but I will not talk to them again. Let's say I want to have neutral relationship after the hostile one. I know it's very negative and different from Lord Jesus' commandment, "Love your enemy as thy neighbour." But there is nothing I can do since I'm unable to speak and very prone to misunderstandings. Maybe I should ignore them whenever I meet them as if I do not know them.

What I'm worried is my relationship with God. Not the homeworks. I have not even prayed for long time. Hopefully, I can slow down and mediate to regain my praying strength in Kukup. Next week, I'll be renting the room near the school. Hopefully, it will work out well for me. Yes, i'm still continuing to work the part time job.

The storm is lifting.

I was having the busy life. That means I had to get my mother to fetch me to school although we are still not on good term. I admit that I played too much as the games on the Internet are very addictive. I can't help but get myself updated and played them. Perhaps I should stop and spend more time on the gym. I have not been very productive recently. I even missed the school on few days. I guess those games make me lazy. Mm.. I will try to eliminate the games from my schedule so that I can have more time on arts and the church. Moreover, I'm returning to my former part time job. I guess it would not hurt to work while juggling the school and gym. I hope my plan for renting the room near the school, would improve my performance and spirituality. I have to do it because my family are against me and I have to stand on my own feet. I do not care whether my parents would object to my plans because we do not share the same thought. It is not really easy to communicate with them as we have language barrier. I wonder if it is God's plans. Perhaps I will ask Him this weekend. Now, the stress of the works seems to be lifting. That means I can hit the gym with the full force! I'm having the study trip to Kukup next week. Hopefully, it will turn out good as I can have new explorations over there.

Should I relax?

A classmate had lost her mind and made a scene in the school. I heard that she has some serious problems which I do not know. Perhaps she was under the heavy pressure. But there is nothing I can help but to pray for her. I'm worrying about another friend who seems to be troubled by some problems over a long period of time. From those situations, my instinct is telling me that I should relax as I do feel the intense pressure of the school and life this time. But I have been training for the competitions. And I would be fine as the Lord is with me all the time.

Gong Xi Fa Cai! Happy New Year!

Although I am having the public holidays, I don't really feel good or in high spirit. Perhaps it was the stress from the school. Yes, it is really for real. The very first time I'm feeling intense pressure. Although my friend told me to relax and even invited me to his celebration, I politely turned his invitation down as I have some personal stuffs to settle. Yes, I admit that I'm workaholic and I want to finish the works as soon as possible. Right now, I wish that the school would open on public holidays as I need to finish the works by next week. I hope that I can finish the works in few hours' time after the public holidays. If I'm correct, today is the first time that the rain falls since the first day of the year 2009. Hopefully, the rain will not fall the next day as I want to go to the scenery and draw up some pictures.

The beginning

School is going to start tomorrow. My mood is not good today due to some personal stuffs but I will have to give all my trust in God for He does everything for me. So I am going to work harder for Him. This post of my friend's blog really inspires me to the large extent. I don't know whether it can help you unless you are Christian or Catholic. But here it is: http://auburnskye.blogspot.com/2009/01/when-your-sails-no-longer-have-wind.html

To judge or not to judge?

Since the convection to Catholicism almost three years ago, the reminder often shows itself in my head. It said, "Never judge others. Otherwise, you will be judged seriously by God" as Jesus said, "Stop judging, that you may not be judged" - Matthew 7:1 But I came to learn more about the judgement during my reflection yesterday. Yes, indeed we should never judge the others. But Jesus reminded us, "Beware of false prophets, who come to you in sheep's clothing, but underneath are ravenous wolves." -Matthew 7:15 It also requires the judging as Our Daily Bread stated. We need to be able to discern truth from the falsehood. Further, Jesus said, "By their fruits, you will know them" - Matthew 7:16 So we have to judge the people including ourselves by the quality of the fruits we produce. Often, we judge the people in the term of the appearance. For example, we would think that the people are bad since they look like the baddies or ugly. Likewise, we think that they are good since they look like innocent or good looking. Not just that but we often find the faults in others too. Yesterday morning, I was in the lift with the two guys in the office building. In the lift, one of them pressed against the inner door handle with his hand so that we could enter into the lift. He was still holding the door while we were already in the lift. Then, without any thought, I pressed the fourth floor button. The door suddenly closed but that man again pressed the inner door handle to open it. By then, he was staring at me with the anger written on his face as another man came in. I really did not know that he was coming as I did not see him. This is the example. We often find the faults in other people without realizing the whole truth. We need to slow down and think before we confirm our judgment on others as Jesus said, "Why do you notice your splinter in your brother's eye, but do not perceive the wooden beam in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, 'Let me remove the splinter from your eye,' while the wooden beam is in your eye? You hypocrite, remove the wooden beam from your eye first; then you will see clearly to remove the splinter from your brother's eye." - Matthew 7:3-5
So it is okay to judge the others as long as you are careful and understand the whole matter. As Our Daily Bread stated, it must be judged by the heavenly values - the fruit of the Spirit produced within us - love, joy and peace. So I hope that everyone who reads it, will change their own way of the judgement on others. Be slow to judge others and quick to judge yourself.

Thanks be to God for the guide He teaches me. Amen.

Happy Birthday to Elvis Presley

I was not the great fan of Elvis Presley who is having his birthday today. But I like his song, "Love me tender" which I used to create my own "comedy" song for some amusements. I come to know about him through the ghost story which mentions that the couple met his ghost singing at the hotel entrance. Even Our Daily Bread mentions his birthday.

I was frying the chicken thighs for the dinner. I don't know whether it is good for me because of its excess fats. But at least I had consumed a lot of proteins. I'm running out of the supplements. So I can't wait for the coming Chinese New Year. Look like I have succeeded waking up in the very early morning. I also passed the test of not taking the buses to the MRT station since the first day of this year although I had taken the bus to home few times.

Am I ready yet?

I thought that I would feel happy as school days are approaching. But my mood is not dancing with the joy instead. I wonder if it is giving me the pressure. Otherwise, I would be very healthy and able to sleep well now. I guess I need to lead the holy life again. This time, I will be very serious about my religion because I realize that I cannot live without the Christ! My room is still messy and dusty as before. Anyway, I was shopping in the Mustafa yesterday morning. It was the great bargain as those items cost even cheaper than other shopping centres. However, the staffs' attitudes were not good. But it does not matter as I enjoyed myself over there. I guess that yesterday was the good time as I slept for at least 8 hours after some shopping. I guess I have to repeat it today. Oh no, I'm not referring to the shopping but the workout at the gym. Mm... I think I will go to Mustafa again later.

Love at sight

I was carrying the burden of fatigue today yet I found myself going to the gym because I did not want to have another sleepless night. The training was limited but fortunately, my classmate was there to support me. So afterwards, we had the dinner nearby before we were separated in the train station. She was going to buy some furniture in the NTUC whereas I was heading home for the comfort of the pillow. On the way, my eyes were so heavy that I wanted to fall asleep soon. But i forced myself to stay awake. I was standing against the wall for the support between the pretty woman who was busy with her phone and the man who was reading the book or something. My eyes were fixed on the elder man in front of me. I happened to take a peak at the book he was reading. To my surprise, he was reading the Japanese book. Mind you, the elder man was Chinese. After a while, he found the seat and offered it to the lady next to him. By then, my attention was transferring to that lady who politely declined the elder man's offer. Her style of appearance made her sexy and attractive although I was struggling with the feeling of fatigue. Armed with some shopping bags and her stylish purple handbag, black spectacles, black shirt, black trouser and purple long scarf clothed her. Not forgetting, her feet was fit in the reddish pearl shoes and she was reading the book. Although it was not love at sight, I like her sense of fashion because she was wearing my favourite colours. Hey, don't get me wrong. I'm not in hurry in looking for my dream girl. And I don't want to follow the steps of many boys who have the long strings of former girlfriends. Just one girlfriend is enough. That's why I'm serious in my expectations for my dream girl.

New Day

I want to thank God for showing me his beautiful work yesterday. If I had no sore throat, I would never witness the very beautiful yet glorious sun setting evening. I was working out in the gym when I decided to throw the towel due to my terrible sore throat. It was distressing because I only spent one hour in the gym. Not just that, but also I forgot to bring the plastic bag and the lock. But the stress was flowing away my body as I was mediating in the steam room. Later, as the train was emerging from the underground, I noticed that the weather was good. I recalled that I saw the raining through the window when I was warming up on the treadmill earlier. As I was ascending to the exit of the station, the warm, bright and orange filled sight of the trees greeted my eyes. I felt as if my spirit was nourishing by this pleasant and bright evening. So my mood was dancing with the joy and my legs were commanded to walk to the supermarket nearby. My money was spent on my favourite beef, cheese and seaweed. My instinct told me that it was worth of the day. By then, my mind was tuning to the victory celebrated by Shin Chan, my favourite cartoon. He raised his right and straight hand in the air and laughed along with his hero, Action Kamen who did the same. As I was taking the stroll on the way to home, my eyes were fixed on the bright sky. It was seven o'clock and it should be dark. But this time, the sky was bright and blue like the dawn. How pleasant and beautiful is it! Please pardon me for exaggerating. But it is how I felt. Perhaps my mind was simple and easy. During the dinner time, I made the onigiri for myself. I did not know whether everyone had ever done it before because I put my favourite cheese in the onigiri. Naturally, it tasted heavenly and melted at my mouth. So it was my special meal. Recently, I was registering online for the modules. As usual, I was struck at the choices of the new subjects because I could not find what I wanted to have. But I was approaching at the two subjects I had the interest in. At that point, my mind was having the fierce and tensely debates. Fortunately, I found two classmates in MSN and approached them for some advices. Indeed, they had helped to clear the doubts in my head. I was so grateful to them. Then, I decided to take three alternative subjects, which means I am going to have nine subjects for the new semester.

Happy New Year

Again, I failed the attempt to sleep early. I guess that I'm going to have few hours of sleep as the classmate of mine told me over MSN recently, "Let's get us out of our comfort zones. We can feel the presence of the Lord whenever we have the difficulties and hardships." She was right. That is why I decide to keep this new year's resolutions simple yet worthy to fulfill. I was watching the old comedy movie, "Happy Ghost" in Youtube. Yes, it's quite good although it's old. Sometimes, I got the laughs from it. There were feelings of heart touching and excitement too. Although it is described as the comedy and may be not real (It's fiction as we know.), I somehow find some insults from it. It's about the Catholic nun in the movie. I guess that the director of that movie did not know much about the Catholicism back then. If you watch that movie, you will understand how that director made out of that Catholic nun in the show. Despite that, I still want to watch the whole series of those movies.

All right, let's cut to the story. As New Year is already launched today, I am going to abandon my "comfort zone" and regain my workaholic style as if the chick comes out of the hatched shell of its "home". Not forgetting, I must drink the spiritual milk of the Gospel daily so that I may be saved. Next, I'm starting to walk to the MRT station from today onwards. It would be at least 30 minutes. Despite my sweaty type, it would be no problem as the atmosphere is cooler in the early morning. Besides walking, I can save the bus fares! Killing two birds with one stone. I wish that there would be the bike shop near the school so that I can cycle to school everyday. Reduce the air pollution. I got this idea from the newspaper that the foreigner cycled to work everyday. He even does not have to worry about his perspiration from cycling because he can bathe and store his road bike in the bike shop! Rental for the bike and locker in the bike shop is afforadable! Unfortunately, my parents are not the fans of the sports and adventure. Otherwise, I would be rich by now! Five dollars! Five dollars! Five dollars! *laugh*