Friendship

"A kindly turn of speech multiplies a man's friends, and a courteous way of speaking invites many a friendly reply. Let your acquaintances be many, but your advisers one in a thousand. If you want to make a friend, take him on trial, and be in no hurry to trust him; for one kind of friend is only so when it suits him but will not stand by you in your day of trouble. Another kind of friend will fall out with you and to your dismay make your quarrel public, and a third kind of friend will share your table, but not stand by you in your day of trouble: when you are doing well he will be your second self, ordering your servants about; but if ever you are brought low he will turn against you and will hide himself from you. Keep well clear of your enemies, and be wary of your friends. A faithful friend is a sure shelter, whoever finds one has found a rare treaure. A faithful friend is something beyond price, there is no measuring his worth. A faithful friend is the elixir of life, and those who fear the Lord will find one. Whoever fears the Lord makes true friends, for as a man is, so is his friend." (Ecclesiasticus 6:5-17)

As I was looking at my circle of friends, I was being ambivalent whether they really understood my inner thoughts or not. Right now, my mind was overflown with countless thoughts that I could not write down due to paucity of time. Although I found myself being introvert, I tried to be pragmatic and reach out to others. But because of communication barrier and huge differences, it is difficult for me to find one who shares the same world with me and really wants to be best friend with Lord Jesus. My deafness might offend many people but surely friends cannot take troubles from each other, not just joys, can they? Don't tell me that you don't like people correcting you what you should not do?

"Eating and drinking don't make friendships - such friendships even robbers and murderers have. But if we are friends, if we truly care for one another, let's help one another spiritually... Let's hinder those things that lead our friends away to hell." - Saint John Chrysostom

Don't tell me that it is unconventional for me to be interested in spirituality. Everyone has different dream to pursue. I too have my own dream to pursue because I am human being like you. For me, I only desire to be one of best friends of Jesus as my eternal gratitude to Him for having found me and bringing me to His Holy Church where I find the gate of Heaven. 

Taken from Catholic.org (click)

- Story of Saint Teresa of Avila:

Sometimes, however, she couldn't avoid complaining to her closest Friend about the hostility and gossip that surrounded her. When Jesus told her, "Teresa, that's how I treat my friends" Teresa responded, "No wonder you have so few friends." But since Christ has so few friends, she felt they should be good ones. And that's why she decided to reform her Carmelite order.

I can picture how difficult Saint Teresa found it to reform her community as she wanted her brothers and sisters to become holy and perfect as our God is. But she persevered and succeeded eventually. As the result, many holy people were formed and became the saints. As I was so used to my solitude, Lord Jesus told me, "It is not good for you to be alone. Go out and make friends with others whom I desire to have as my friends. Help me to bring them back to Me." That is when I started to go out to the world despite the dangers out there. Our God gave us His inevitable gift - sense of community. This is where our Mother Church, families and friends are found. Friends may have gone through fire and water with you but are they interested to go to Heaven with you if you want to go there? If you want to be my good friend, you have to listen to Lord Jesus' Word: "Be holy and perfect as My Father is Holy and Perfect." I am not asking you to become priest, monk, religious brother and nun for I understand that everyone has different calling from God. Just be holy in whatever you are. If you manage to love Lord Jesus and Mother Mary wholeheartedly, you will know where to find me. Think about what you can offer to God when you reach the death where it changes your condition of life. All of us come to this world with nothing and also leave this world with nothing.