Desire to be light and salt to the world

After the conservation with a friend of mine, my mind was directed to the quote of Mother Teresa.

"If I ever become a Saint - I will surely become one of 'darkness.' I will continually be absent from Heaven - to light the light of those in darkness on earth." - Mother Teresa of Calcutta

As I was reading the book, Mother Teresa was suffering a lot yet she remained faithful and determined to persevere on the will of God for her. I learnt that the greater the sufferings we have, the greater the love of God we receive. My thoughts are running wild over my deafness. I want to be healed because I want to speak out the love of God to my family as well as those who do not believe in Christ. At the same time, I want to embrace my deafness because I want to suffer for the sake of Christ so that I can keep shining for Him. "His blindness has nothing to do with his sins or his parents' sins. He is blind so that God's power might be seen at work in him." (John9:3)

As another friend of mine wrote down,

"Recommend virtue to your children, that alone - not wealth - can give happiness. It upholds in adversity and the thought of it and my art prevents me from putting an end to my life." - Beethoven.

"My misfortune is doubly painful to me because it will result in my being misunderstood. For me there can be no recreation in the company of others, no intelligent conversation, no exchange of information with peers; only the most pressing needs can make me venture into society. I am obliged to live like an outcast." - Beethoven

I was inspired by Mother Teresa and Beethoven not to stop doing the things I love because of the problems like illness, pain etc. Right now, I want to do what God wants me to do. "Remind me each morning of your constant love , for I put my trust in you. My prayers go up to you; show me the way I should go." (Ps 143:8) Adding to my careers plans, I want to be catechist, catching the deaf people for Lord Jesus because of their vulnerable weakness, deafness.

Although fire was often described as the anger of God and destruction in the bible, I described the fire as the love of God as I always pray to Holy Spirit to enkindle the fire of love in my heart for it is said " your body is the temple of Holy Spirit, who lives in you and who was given to you by God." (1 Cor 6:19) So that I can be the light to the world. "You are like light for the whole world. Your light must shine before people, so that they will see the good things you do and praise your Father in heaven." (Matthew 5:14,16)

May I always delight and desire to do His will on earth. In Jesus' Name. Amen.

"Ask Jesus not to allow me to refuse Him anything, however small. I [would] rather die." - Mother Teresa of Calcutta