My wishes ~ Impossible and Possible

As the time table has just changed since there is no meeting which I wanted to attend today. So I went back after the school by my mum's cab. After the shower, I took a short nap as the pain was invading in my body. So I must rest to battle this troublesome pain successfully. They came from the excessive exercises yesterday.

Although the painful feeling was almost gone, I was completely refreshed. But at the same time, I was in the chaos of rage. The thoughts of my parents were the source of the fire in my heart. I understood that they were much less clever due to their low education but I could not stand it when they refused to heed my advices and did not bother to lend me an ear. Small wonder my speech was very poor. They even did not know my needs and desires to affect my life. No matter what I did, they still did not get it. Often, they mocked at me. This explains why I am rebellious at home. In fact I'm boiling inside everyday. They drove me crazy more than enough. I did not hear any word of encouragement from them from my childhood. Not even love I felt. I only felt it when the other people treated me nicely. As well, this supports the reason that I'm good guy outside.

As I'm typing this blog, my heart has been wanting to write down all my wishes. I just want to share my ideas with the readers of this blog. It's all up to them whether they want to make the comment on this blog.

Wishes ~

1) Faith. This is my first important thing in my life. I believe in Christ for God loves us and He is good all the time. He always is there to comfort me whenever I am in distress. As well, He is always the first person I come to when I feel unhappy and want to cry. I'm going to be baptised into the Catholic this November. O Lord, watch over me and protect me from evil and temptation. In Jesus' Name. Amen. As well, I have Virgin Mary, Holy Mother in my heart for I see her as my mother.

2) Money. Although I'm not eyeing the wealth, obviously I need money to support my needs. I cannot depend on my parents all the time for they are not reliable all the time. As well, I need to pay off the current debt (My parents don't know about it.) Of course, I need the car for the transport for I'm sweaty type (I sweat profusely after even five minutes walk. Can you image it when I walk some distance to school from MRT station.) and my mother always complains and sometimes comes late every time I call her out for the ride. Often, she always panic me whenever I need to reach the various places urgently.

3) Healing. I'm feeling this painful emotion almost everyday. I hope that the Lord will take me away from this miserable world. As well, I want to be healed of my hearing impaired. So that I can hear God's words and my communication with the people would improve gradually. As well, I think that it can improve the relationship between my parents and I.

4) Strength. This is for my favourite game - rugby. As well, I wish to be huge like the giants so that I can balance or even overcome the strong opponents. Yes, I want to be strong guy as I'm aiming at the wrestling and American Football.

So far, I don't have any more ideas of my wishes. I hope that tomorrow will be better.

Cheers!~