An hour had passed since the department. Not sure whether I'm depressed or sad right now. I wished that I could turn back the clock and joined them. Perhaps it's one of God's plans and He wants me to save money for the oversea studies. I better put more trust in Him as I could not see whether I could go to that place to study in the future.
It's funny but I feel like wanting to have someone as the company. Lord Jesus, I wish that you could send someone with the strong belief of Catholicism here to talk to me. Amen.
I have not talked to my family for long time. Neither I plan to talk to them again. Many times they misunderstood me because of our language barrier and they refused to lend me their ears. It is really not easy to get them to understand what I am trying to say. I had tried very hard to forgive them but I could not because they had insulted, mocked me and even did not keep their words. It was not first time. I do not know whether there is someone who has similar situation. But I am not going to be talkative anymore. I'm sick of anyone who did not bother to reply to me via email and text. I'm also sick of the foul scent and junkies at home. Fine, once I have the chance to study oversea, I will definitely not come back to my hometown anymore unless on special occasions.
2 comments:
hi Michael,I can understand that you want to study overseas;japan(if im still right), from your previous posts and you ever told me before last semester. You really want it, don't you? Remember Eccleciates 3:1-15, there is a time in everything,"..a time to every purpose under the heaven..". I'm very sure if your wish was under God's plan, He will grant it: "And I say unto you, Ask, and it shall be given you; seek, and ye shall find; knock, and it shall be opened unto you."Luke11:9. God's answer may take years and at the same time testing our perseverance.
I guess God has a greater plan for you than goin to NY, maybe you'll get to go further than the US..or any unthinkable things you would ever do/be.
GBU(God bless You)
btw,Im sorry I never/rarely posted any comments/responds before, but I always read and update myself with people's blog :)
i forgot to say:
so jia you! yes, put all your trust in the Lord..and Im sure He will open up your family's hearts and ears. don't give up yah~
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