A farewell

This morning, I went to the airport to see my friend despite my fatigue as he was going back to his hometown, Philippines. I gave him the gift as shown above. Yes, the drawing seems to be incomplete. I would love to finish it but unfortunately, I did not have much time on my hands. But I hope that he appreciates it. After I gave him the gift and hug, I left suddenly as I wanted to go back and rest due to the fatigue. I knew that it was rude of me to leave like that but I did not want to let my emotions overcome me. If I stayed and watched him leave, the stream of tears would be running on my cheeks. I do not know how long it will take but probably like long long time. From the experience, right now, I do not know whether I should go and find my old friends because I decided to abandon them and started the new life long time ago.

Sick of loneliness

An hour had passed since the department. Not sure whether I'm depressed or sad right now. I wished that I could turn back the clock and joined them. Perhaps it's one of God's plans and He wants me to save money for the oversea studies. I better put more trust in Him as I could not see whether I could go to that place to study in the future.

It's funny but I feel like wanting to have someone as the company. Lord Jesus, I wish that you could send someone with the strong belief of Catholicism here to talk to me. Amen.

I have not talked to my family for long time. Neither I plan to talk to them again. Many times they misunderstood me because of our language barrier and they refused to lend me their ears. It is really not easy to get them to understand what I am trying to say. I had tried very hard to forgive them but I could not because they had insulted, mocked me and even did not keep their words. It was not first time. I do not know whether there is someone who has similar situation. But I am not going to be talkative anymore. I'm sick of anyone who did not bother to reply to me via email and text. I'm also sick of the foul scent and junkies at home. Fine, once I have the chance to study oversea, I will definitely not come back to my hometown anymore unless on special occasions.

Blow the storm away!

Finally, the storm is over. In the morning, I was sleeping soundly while my assessments were in the process. Yes, I was so exhausted from two sleepless nights though I had taken the naps. I went to the school in the evening to drag myself into the meeting. I just wanted to see my classmates for a while before I got myself busy during the vacation. I could not believe my ears and was very excited when my lecturer asked me to improve my sculpture work further and would exhibit it.

Face the music

I saw two persons gather around it besides the drawing post. Their attention was on that thing. It belonged to my classmate. I was wondering what happened. But I was engrossed in my work. So I imagined that it just dropped onto the floor and lied there. That is it. Beforehand, it was in the bag. Then, another classmate took it and placed it on the chair besides her as if it was her company. That is the girl thing, I guess. After a while, our mutual friend dropped by for the visit. As she was scared of that thing, my classmate asked me to put it away. So I did. I placed it on the drawing post as I wanted to amuse the owner of that post. Then, I went away and continued my works.

On the next night, I decided to check on that thing as it grabbed my attention. Much to my shock, its foot was broken! I thought it was the plastic that is unbreakable. I rushed and tried to fix its foot with the help of my classmate. However, we could not find any missing pieces after the fix. So we decided to use the other material as the substitute. By then, I texted the message to the owner of that thing so as to tell her what happened. I was expecting the disaster as I knew that it was expensive and could not be bought. As expected, I smelt the anger in her last reply. I did not know whose fault it was but I decide to take it all as I'm responsible for the accident. I will do anything to appease her anger as it was not easy to restore the friendship. I offended her before so I know what would happen if I do it again. I hope that we will not become the enemies as I wish not to make any more enemies.

Depressed

Another bad news from my class. Another classmate did the unimaginable thing last night. It's over the boy-girl relationship. That's plain stupid thing to do. I was shocked and did not believe my ears when I found out because i did not suspect anything about her since she looked fine to me. I was also wondering whether she was pretending or trying to get the attention. *sigh* I had seen so many young girls who committed the same thing in the past. When will they grow up? I hope that they will find comfort and healing in the Lord one day. Amen.

The new passion?

She was used to be very passionate in her works. She told me that she would rather starve herself for her artworks. But now, she seems as if she's going to quit. I fear that we are going to lose one more family member. I know the reason but i'm not going to write it down as it is her private matter. It struck my head that I should grab every opportunity in life as it does not come again. I hope that she will find the way out one day.

My classmate told me that i'm adventure type as he was reading my palm. He seems that he's into the palm reading as all his predictions are very accurate. He's right for i'm adventure type. I like to explore the new places and take part in the sports competitions. Maybe you can say that I want to be the triathlon competitor.

A night at Clarke Quay

Yesterday, I was carving the wood when my classmate started to clean up and looked as if he's going to leave soon. Over the conversation, he told me that he's going to eat and drink with our lecturer and the gang. I started to clean up as well. When we were ready to depart, the breeze of the night greeted us. I guess it's nice to hang out with them often. Although the lecturer is definitely our lecturer, he's more like a friend rather than the teacher. After meeting up with the lecturer and the dinner, we went to the bar nearby. Coincidentally, we dropped by the bar which is the rugby club's home. I used to play for them the other times. Indeed, it brought a lot of memories. Usually, it was crowded on Saturday nights but this time, it's not. Perhaps they already finished the games. At the moment, I drank two and half glasses of the beer. I expected to be drunk but was not. The chatting went on until the one o'clock after the midnight. By then, some of them went home. There were four of us including the lecturer left. So we went for the supper. Surprisingly, we met another three classmates on the way. They were having the drinks. Perhaps the break from the outing? Anyway, we continued to walk to the destination. On the way, we passed by the bars and pubs. I was asking myself, "Am I walking on the dark road?" because I saw so many tattooed people, fashioned men, sexy women and smoking chainers. There were foreigners as well. Although it's common to see such as the sight, I was not pleased as I disliked the scent of smoking. When we finally found the food stall, we sat down and had the meal. Again, there were glasses of beer. I took one again. I was not sure whether I liked the beer but I finished it anyway. If I were to have the choices, I would prefer the white wine. After the supper, we went to the bus stop where we would take the night bus. One of us took the cab to home. On the way to the bus stop, I was expected to see three classmates again but they were all gone. At the last minute, we decided to take the cab. Yes, it was pleasant nice to take the ride of the taxi after the tiring journey. It was around three o'clock when I reached home. Naturally, I felt more comfortable on the bed after the shower.