New Year's Resolutions

It has been three days since my last workout at the gym. The fever and cold had struck me hard, I guess. I suspected that it came from the male teenager in the train. He squeezed right onto my head. He even never apologised. (Or perhaps he did?) I hope the people like him would have some conscience and practise the good hygiene. Now, it's only the sore throat which attacks my neck. The fever was gone. Thanksfully. Because of it, I had the nightmare and could not sleep well. Worsening it, the weird voice in my left ear bugged me all the time. From onwards, I must eat the fruits no matter what. Otherwise, I can't work hard on my body for the competitions I'm planning to take part. At least, my body is getting a bit toned. I have the feeling that I'm going to have eight or ten packs of abs soon.

About someone who has the sour relationship with me. I heard that she will continue to study through Year 3 with us despite her poor skills. I was glad to hear that! I hope that she will work hard to improve her skills and may even exceed us. It does not matter if she dislikes me to the large extent because I don't have any plan to befriend her due to her temper. I don't want to have the fight with her again. So it's best for us to stay neutral rather than the hostile.

Mm, it's all about the resolutions for New Year again. I guess that I should keep it simple and easy so that I may fulfill them with ease because I did not complete the whole list of resolutions for this year, 2008. I'm not going to write down my list because I want to keep it private. There is no need to show it off.

A dream

It's really complicated to change the blog skin. Although I like the new skin, there are some I don't want to see on my blog. So I'll be using my old skin. It will be some times before I change the skin.

Since the vacation started, I have been experiencing some dreams, both good and bad ones. However, a few days ago, I found myself wandering into the short yet interesting one. The environment seems to be the gym I frequent this time. There was a person standing in front of me. He looked exactly like me. But he had the medium long hair I used to have before. His size was almost like the short yet fit giant as if he was possessing the toned and muscular body. Was I facing my own doppleganger? I have read somewhere that it's ghostly reflection of the living person as if it's the twin brother or sister. And it's bad news as well since many who met the dopplegangers, were taken away by the death. But I was in the dream. It could not be such the bad news. I also read that many Africans believe that we are open to the spiritual world when we are sleeping. And the dreams are often the shape of the future.

This person was wearing the grey shirt. His hair was dyed as the brownish red in colour. I admit that I was put in the awe and admiration by his smiling lips although I'm used to see my own lips in front of the mirror everyday. What a strange yet interesting dream it is.

A new experience

A friend who just returned from Japan, began to work her body out today. Yes, it was the nice pleasure to receive the presents from her. In return, I gave her the healthy treat in Subway. Anyway, our training was cut short as she had the appointment with the doctor in the afternoon. So I continued the training on my own. During the cardio training, I pushed my body to the extreme level as I was running for 22 minutes, climbing over 100 floors for 25 minutes and rowing for 20 minutes. It was the good feeling as I could feel the fierce burning within my body. I guess that my new technique was doing good. Even my friend said that it really worked after I taught her.

After the workout, I took the shower and changed. Then, I was heading towards the train station which was located in the next city. This was where I met my friend who had the appointment with the doctor earlier. We had the delicious and relaxing meal at Subway. I do admit that the food from Subway tastes heavenly and delicious. Yes, it was my very first time eating at Subway. Indeed, it was the nice experience. After a while, we decided to visit the new store we never went to before. We found out about it from the website my friend recommended to me. At first, we thought that it was very huge due to the wide range of the products in the website. As we were waiting for the bus in the bus interchange, we encountered the problems. We did not even know the exact location of the new store! We were not familiar with the place as well. Fortunately, my friend who recommended that store, helped to lead the way via the messages we text each other. Actually, we overshot the place and ended up in walking over the long distance to reach there! We laughed at this incident. Anyway, it was our first time after all. To my surprise, the store was not huge as we expected. It's same as the common stores we usually shop. But it was really a bargin. The products over there were far cheaper than the ones at the common stores. Over this incident, we went home happily.

A wish

The pains of the body aches kept bothering me. But I'm glad that it's working. One round belly will become eight packs soon. It may sound difficult but I'm positive about it. I admit that I fancy the thoughts of gaining the attention over my body but I'm trying hard not to think about that because it's for the purpose and my reasons. I'll be resting today. There's another thing I'm trying hard to develop - That is my spirituality. However, I'm having the difficulties because my family don't believe in Christ. I wish at least one of them would convert to the Christian beliefs soon. My struggles are getting heavier and heavier. Just a bit more and it will be over, I hope.

It's strange but I want to spend the Christmas on my own. Yes, I want to be alone. For my wish for the present is to spend the whole day with God. Perhaps I should let go of the earthly things as I did before.

The end of the entertainments

I have been the hardcore fan of the various entertainments such as the video games and video clips since I was young. So I'm going to delcare that there will be no more entertainments for me from today onwards. Sounds weird or difficult? But I don't care. I just want to spend more time on others like reading etc. I don't know why I want to be the bookworm. But it can be an excuse to improve my English and arts skills!

Back to the hermit

Although there are a lot of new fun stuffs out there, I want to go back to my old self where I built the walls around me, fleeing from the world. I find my current attitude quite good in the school but the home has not changed yet. I have no problem with others who are studying the same diploma. However, there is one classmate whom I find it difficult to resolve our sour relationship. This person somehow has the same attitude of the others who had hurt me before. Well, Lord Jesus said, "Love your enemies, and pray for those who persecute you." (Matthew 5: 44) Yes, I had been wanting to forgive all who have offended me since I started the new life one and half a year ago. As the problems became more complicated and as the human nature, I found it difficult to soften my heart and forgive them. I often read or hear, "Love thy enemy as thy neighbour." as it is said, "You shall love your neighbor as yourself." (Mark 12: 31) It's quite convincing that Lord Jesus wants us to be friends as He loves us. For He said, "Love one another. As I have loved you, so you also should love one another." (John 13: 34) So that we might be spared from the judgement as He said, "If you forgive others their transgressions, your heavenly Father will forgive you." (Matthew 6: 14)

I am wondering whether they are aware of it. I pray that they will come to the sense soon and make their actions. I also hope that God will help us to regain our old friends and make no more enemy. There is a saying, "Time will heal." It's certainly true as we change over the period of time.

Long time ago, my Godfather told me, "Ask the Holy Spirit to give you the strength so that you might forgive the others." Amen to that.

A new life

I want to start a new life again. I had deleted my account in Friendster because everything in Friendster is not realistic. I thought that I should not waste time on such those websites. I want to spend more time on my desires. I'm afraid that I have to stop hanging out with the friends anymore unless on the special occasions. When I was having the very first day in the school one and half a year ago, I never wanted to have any enemy or conflicts. But now, it was impossible. I don't want to lose any more friend again. Perhaps I should turn to the silent mode instead of practising my "comedian" skills. It looks like I'm going to have the studio with the friends for our own soon. I can't wait to start the business and the exhibitions. And the competitions as well.

A farewell

This morning, I went to the airport to see my friend despite my fatigue as he was going back to his hometown, Philippines. I gave him the gift as shown above. Yes, the drawing seems to be incomplete. I would love to finish it but unfortunately, I did not have much time on my hands. But I hope that he appreciates it. After I gave him the gift and hug, I left suddenly as I wanted to go back and rest due to the fatigue. I knew that it was rude of me to leave like that but I did not want to let my emotions overcome me. If I stayed and watched him leave, the stream of tears would be running on my cheeks. I do not know how long it will take but probably like long long time. From the experience, right now, I do not know whether I should go and find my old friends because I decided to abandon them and started the new life long time ago.

Sick of loneliness

An hour had passed since the department. Not sure whether I'm depressed or sad right now. I wished that I could turn back the clock and joined them. Perhaps it's one of God's plans and He wants me to save money for the oversea studies. I better put more trust in Him as I could not see whether I could go to that place to study in the future.

It's funny but I feel like wanting to have someone as the company. Lord Jesus, I wish that you could send someone with the strong belief of Catholicism here to talk to me. Amen.

I have not talked to my family for long time. Neither I plan to talk to them again. Many times they misunderstood me because of our language barrier and they refused to lend me their ears. It is really not easy to get them to understand what I am trying to say. I had tried very hard to forgive them but I could not because they had insulted, mocked me and even did not keep their words. It was not first time. I do not know whether there is someone who has similar situation. But I am not going to be talkative anymore. I'm sick of anyone who did not bother to reply to me via email and text. I'm also sick of the foul scent and junkies at home. Fine, once I have the chance to study oversea, I will definitely not come back to my hometown anymore unless on special occasions.

Blow the storm away!

Finally, the storm is over. In the morning, I was sleeping soundly while my assessments were in the process. Yes, I was so exhausted from two sleepless nights though I had taken the naps. I went to the school in the evening to drag myself into the meeting. I just wanted to see my classmates for a while before I got myself busy during the vacation. I could not believe my ears and was very excited when my lecturer asked me to improve my sculpture work further and would exhibit it.

Face the music

I saw two persons gather around it besides the drawing post. Their attention was on that thing. It belonged to my classmate. I was wondering what happened. But I was engrossed in my work. So I imagined that it just dropped onto the floor and lied there. That is it. Beforehand, it was in the bag. Then, another classmate took it and placed it on the chair besides her as if it was her company. That is the girl thing, I guess. After a while, our mutual friend dropped by for the visit. As she was scared of that thing, my classmate asked me to put it away. So I did. I placed it on the drawing post as I wanted to amuse the owner of that post. Then, I went away and continued my works.

On the next night, I decided to check on that thing as it grabbed my attention. Much to my shock, its foot was broken! I thought it was the plastic that is unbreakable. I rushed and tried to fix its foot with the help of my classmate. However, we could not find any missing pieces after the fix. So we decided to use the other material as the substitute. By then, I texted the message to the owner of that thing so as to tell her what happened. I was expecting the disaster as I knew that it was expensive and could not be bought. As expected, I smelt the anger in her last reply. I did not know whose fault it was but I decide to take it all as I'm responsible for the accident. I will do anything to appease her anger as it was not easy to restore the friendship. I offended her before so I know what would happen if I do it again. I hope that we will not become the enemies as I wish not to make any more enemies.

Depressed

Another bad news from my class. Another classmate did the unimaginable thing last night. It's over the boy-girl relationship. That's plain stupid thing to do. I was shocked and did not believe my ears when I found out because i did not suspect anything about her since she looked fine to me. I was also wondering whether she was pretending or trying to get the attention. *sigh* I had seen so many young girls who committed the same thing in the past. When will they grow up? I hope that they will find comfort and healing in the Lord one day. Amen.

The new passion?

She was used to be very passionate in her works. She told me that she would rather starve herself for her artworks. But now, she seems as if she's going to quit. I fear that we are going to lose one more family member. I know the reason but i'm not going to write it down as it is her private matter. It struck my head that I should grab every opportunity in life as it does not come again. I hope that she will find the way out one day.

My classmate told me that i'm adventure type as he was reading my palm. He seems that he's into the palm reading as all his predictions are very accurate. He's right for i'm adventure type. I like to explore the new places and take part in the sports competitions. Maybe you can say that I want to be the triathlon competitor.

A night at Clarke Quay

Yesterday, I was carving the wood when my classmate started to clean up and looked as if he's going to leave soon. Over the conversation, he told me that he's going to eat and drink with our lecturer and the gang. I started to clean up as well. When we were ready to depart, the breeze of the night greeted us. I guess it's nice to hang out with them often. Although the lecturer is definitely our lecturer, he's more like a friend rather than the teacher. After meeting up with the lecturer and the dinner, we went to the bar nearby. Coincidentally, we dropped by the bar which is the rugby club's home. I used to play for them the other times. Indeed, it brought a lot of memories. Usually, it was crowded on Saturday nights but this time, it's not. Perhaps they already finished the games. At the moment, I drank two and half glasses of the beer. I expected to be drunk but was not. The chatting went on until the one o'clock after the midnight. By then, some of them went home. There were four of us including the lecturer left. So we went for the supper. Surprisingly, we met another three classmates on the way. They were having the drinks. Perhaps the break from the outing? Anyway, we continued to walk to the destination. On the way, we passed by the bars and pubs. I was asking myself, "Am I walking on the dark road?" because I saw so many tattooed people, fashioned men, sexy women and smoking chainers. There were foreigners as well. Although it's common to see such as the sight, I was not pleased as I disliked the scent of smoking. When we finally found the food stall, we sat down and had the meal. Again, there were glasses of beer. I took one again. I was not sure whether I liked the beer but I finished it anyway. If I were to have the choices, I would prefer the white wine. After the supper, we went to the bus stop where we would take the night bus. One of us took the cab to home. On the way to the bus stop, I was expected to see three classmates again but they were all gone. At the last minute, we decided to take the cab. Yes, it was pleasant nice to take the ride of the taxi after the tiring journey. It was around three o'clock when I reached home. Naturally, I felt more comfortable on the bed after the shower.

"Harden not your heart"

Earlier, over the conversation with my classmate, I heard that they all will be going for the trip after the assessment day. I was struggling with the hard feelings. I even developed more distrust against my parents. I was supposed to go with them but my parents chose not to hear me out. I wanted to go with them because they are all my favourite classmates. Perhaps close friends. We had been sharing the hardship and joy since the first day of our gang formed unconsciously. It had been a while since I abandoned my old friends and started the new life long time ago. Perhaps the reason I felt close with them is because we shared the same passion. Later, after some reflection, I realized there's something bad about me. It's the pride of the feeling. On the second thought, perhaps it was the blessing that I didn't go with them because if I go, my relationship with my parents may grow worse. Even the same for God. Again, I thought that I could go on the trip when I study oversea after the graduation. I could even earn more than the worth of the trip by staying here.

A night in friend's house

Yesterday, I returned from my classmate's house. Yes, it was the very first time I stayed over the friend's house. Not just me but also the three gorgeous girls. Cool but we were serious doing our group work - video experiment in the middle of the night. We were supposed to do my role in the morning but we were so worn out that we fell asleep from the naps. So we had no choice but to postpone it to other day. It was fun at all because we were discussing our ideas and feelings. Of course, we did relaxing during the breaks. Anyway, before we went to his house, I heard the shock news from my female classmate regarding our mutual friend. But I accepted it instead of worrying over it because life always have the complicated things no matter what we do. I wished that I did bringing the camera with me so that I could pose with the gorgeous girls! *laughing* But it does not matter as I have the memory in my head. It's already enough. I got this feeling when I was about to doze off to the sleep. I felt that I might stay over the female friend's house in the future. Just two of us. Oh no, why did I think like that? Hopefully, I would not think wildly. Or perhaps I could invite some more friends. You know what I mean. My classmate and I both were the last persons to leave house. I know that we were rude as we didn't bade farewell. But there's nobody in sight except our friend. He's still sleeping like the log. As we didn't want to disturb his peaceful time, we left.

When I reached home just before the noon, I was not tired at all although I had few hours of sleep in my friend's house. But I went to the bed after doing the chores and the shower. I wanted to go and work out at the gym but I was too lazy. Perhaps it was due to the sleep. Even now, I'm still sleepy. All right, it looks like the assessments are coming. I need to cut down the relaxing times.

It has been long time since the last blog.

It sounds as if I was having the holidays before I created this post. I guess it is okay to have a break for everything we do because it can comfort the stress a bit. It is exactly true because I'm in good mood now. Looks like life is changing from time to time. Perhaps we are growing up from our experiences because I find that I had learnt a lot of valuable lessons from what I had done. Perhaps it's the excellent blessing for me to be unable to hear although I have been wanting to hear like the normal people since the childhood. Now, I'm beginning to think that I've changed because I no longer use most popular activities like chatting online, Friendster etc. Maybe you can say that I'm mature as I'm working on the serious matters. Or maybe old fashioned because I prefer to keep it simple and plain. Some of my classmates are going to have the study trip this coming holiday. To New York. I wish that I can join them but unfortunately, I'm not rich. Maybe it's best for me to stay here as I can earn a lot of money than the spending. The study trip can wait because I may be having the trip when I study oversea later. Look like that I enjoy being with my current gang a lot. Hopefully, I can make time for the churches in my daily schedule because something cropped up every time I wanted to visit the church. I have confirmed my decisions on the careers. Those are; sculptor, bodybuilder and wrestler. Although I do have the plans with my friend to set up the business, I don't have the confidence that it would go well because we don't have the experience and even time for it. She sounded as if she wanted to do her own desires although she was very keen to do the business with me. I hope that I will see the familiar faces who share the same passions again after the graduation.

A lonely warrior

It seems that everyone rejected my invitation I sent out the day before. I wanted to invite them to my exhibition which is going to be displayed on weekends of this month. Well, i'm used to it. Many times I was rejected when I invited anyone to go out with me for fun. Perhaps I was so demanding or boring guy. It's really ironic in life or perhaps humans are somehow strange. When I often was with the group, they were not very "noisy". I mean we did not talk to each other a lot or our conversations were very short. But when we had not kept in touch for long time and happened to meet each other one day, they became more friendly and kept talking to me. I'm amused at that thought. I guess that the only person I can trust is none other than God. I'll try harder to get back to the right path as He saved me before.

Right now, my body seems to be in high spirit and very energetic. Perhaps it was due to my registration I made at the language school in the afternoon the day before. I can feel the burst of excitement at the thought of the new language adding to my brain. I believe I have to take the difficult path since I have no choice. Just like all the christians facing the tests in their lives. Similarly, the road to Heaven is narrow. ".. for the gate is wide and the road broad that leads to destruction..." - (Matthew 7:13) Which means that the journey to Christ is very difficult. Yes, it's time to be more strict on myself as my time for baptism is nearer. Now, I'll never let go of my shield that is Christ. Importantly, I hope that I will be the salt and light to everyone I meet especially my family.

Just one step

Just finished working yesterday. Of course, it was tiring. I admit that i'm getting old because my back was aching when I was working. It was different from my previous job. Maybe I was young and energetic back then. So to refreshen myself, I went to the viewing mall to admire the beautiful view. Yesterday was the fourth day of my work. All right, today is the day I'm off. The great way to relax! *laugh*

I'm going to the Comfort Driving Centre to apply for the theory lessons in the afternoon. Hopefully, they accept my application. *cross the fingers*

Lord, please bless me and be with me when I'm going to take the lessons for riding. I need the motorcycle for the transport means. I ask this through Christ our Lord. Amen.

The beginning

I enjoyed myself a lot at the sculpture carnival last week. Of course, it was a pleasant surprise because I was assigned to be the instructor at the station I was assigned to. Thanks to the help of the other instructors and assistants, Not forgetting the strangers, friends and acquaintances as well. Honestly, it made me consider being the art teacher for the children. But now, I think I have to put this idea on hold because I have other plans on my hand. So many of them. Maybe I can volunteer in the children's home by teaching art. Here are the pictures of the puppets the others (including Anglo Chinese Junior College and Saint Andrew Junior College) and I created for the display.

Actually, there were more puppets on that window. But unfortunately, I had to leave early to attend the Sunday mass in the nearby church. By the time I returned, they were already gone. I could not find them around. Hopefully, they would not be dumped in the trash. Otherwise, I could take them and donate them to the children's home where they could be used.

All right. Tomorrow will be the beginning for me because I will be working on that day. Yeah, it's the first day I report to work. I hope that it will provide enough funds for my plans.I also hope that the inspiration will come back as soon as possible. There are two major events coming up next month, June. They're very important for me. Lord, guide and strengthen me through the Holy Spirit so that I can face the challenges without fear. In Jesus' name. *praying*

Third day of the sculpture carnival

Good morning! That's what I am telling myself now. Last Thursday was the first day of the sculpture carnival. Although it was somehow difficult for me to manage it, I enjoyed myself a lot as well as I learnt something new. Patience is important during the busy moments. Otherwise, those children would not cooperate with me and learnt nothing from the sessions. What I enjoyed are not the beautiful smiles from all those pretty girls and boys. But rather I liked the children's smiles more because I felt the joy through them. Honestly, the laughter of those three children I played with strengthened and inspired me a lot that I wanted to move on despite the difficulties I always face. Not just that, I saw how the acquaintances worked with the children. That's how I learnt how to help those children. I had no problem in that because I played with my cousin when she was young last time. Another lesson is that someone learns the best when he's being very curious in the particular thing he handles. I learnt it from very active and curious boy who put everything in his works. I was amused at how he created his own puppet himself. Those children were well behaved opposite to my expectations.

Yesterday was the second day of the sculpture carnival. Again, I saw the angelic smiles from the acquaintances. My station was so busy in the morning. This time, it was easier because more helpers were assigned to my station. In the afternoon, it was less busier as there were a few people around. So to kill the time and amuse myself, I went to the other stations to try out the other works.

All right. It's time for me to end here. I look forward to the third day of the sculpture carnival. That's today. I hope to see a lot of people doing the artworks over there.

My favourite work at my station: "A little angel"

Laziness, please go away!

It's horrible thing that we always feel in our world. Even worse, we never learnt the lesson from it! It's none other than the laziness! Since the end of term, I started feeling tired. I took it as the fatigue from the hard works. As time went by, I relaxed and enjoyed myself as usual. However, not long ago, I discovered that I was being lazy those days! Well, thankfully, I discover it early. Otherwise, I would be in trouble when the major event comes up next month. Another major event I'm having this week is the sculpture carnival. Although I don't know what will happen during the carnival, I'm getting excited over it. The first day is on today. Just four hours away.

My friend went back to China last night because he was worried about his family. I'm depressed at the thought of the recent victims in the two countries. I hope that another earthquake would never happen in China. I admit that I didn't feel anything when I was reading the news regarding the recent disasters. But now, I'm feeling a bit troubled. This way, I realize that I'm too obsessed with my own desires.

Lastly, I want the motorbike! I need it for the transport. Although my parents were against it, they allow me to apply for the motorbike license on my own if I pay with my own pocket. I guess I need to work harder and sell more and save a lot of money. Yes, I will make sure that I get my hands onto the bike!

Fall of the storm

Finally, the storm ended last Thursday. Right after 5pm. Thankfully, the stress had been chased away from my head. No more horrible presence of the classmate in my sight. She always depressed me so much. I hope that the current holidays would loosen the tension between us. At the moment, I reached home and took a shower. Then i hit the bed and slipped away into the darkness. Beforehand, I was thinking of exploring more arts and developing my skills. I even thought of making my own website and some commission from my art works. However, when I woke up, I found out that it was in the middle of night. I wanted to start developing the works from my ideas and imaginations. However, by then I found myself too heavy to move. Maybe my body was telling me to rest since I had been having some sleepless nights during the school days. Or it had become lazy. I admit that I'm very lazy right now because my room is still in mess after tidying up halfway. There are so many works I have been wanting to do. I guess I need to take it slowly. Today, I went to NUS museum with seven people who shared common interest in the sculpture as well as the lecturer. There were a lot of excellent works on display over there. Not just the sculpture but also the paintings. Very interested. Unfortunately, I didn't bring the camera along. If i knew, I would probably bring it. It does not matter because I still remember what I have seen in that museum. After discussing the topic with my classmate, I believe that I make a right choice. Thanks be to God.

A new dream

I HAD COMPLETED 200 DRAWINGS!

(>_@) d

Finally, this objective has been achieved. Now, nothing can delay me from completing all the other assignments. I really can't wait to complete the giant chess for the sculpture work and show it off. *LOL* Bwahaha....

Now, my dream has been disturbed by new target. Lecturers and friends told me that I could take the sculpture for the major subject. Of course, it brought to my attention. Before that, I intended to take the western paintings. But now, I realize that I can take the sculpture. Actually, I'm more interested in the sculpture than the paintings. However, there are doubts still going on. Perhaps I need more time to make the certain (final) decision.

If I take western paintings, my careers would be like this:

• Painter
• Wrestler
• Chef
• Bodybuilder
• Priest?

If I take sculpture, my careers would be:

• Sculptor
• Bodybuilder
• Chef
• Priest?

From what I heard, the sculpture would take a lot of time. I'm not sure whether I can take part time lessons for paintings. I hope that I will make the correct decision with the Lord's help when time comes.

God really loves us

This is truly a gift from God. Really beautiful and magnificent. She's blind yet she's able to play the piano on her own. I admit that I was crying when she sang, "You were born to be loved." She's really blessed by God. I sincerely hope that she will become world class pianist. I found the first video on top from my acquaintance(Or stranger?)'s blog. Everyone must watch this video. Perhaps it could be an inspiration for everyone. It could say that if nothing can stop this little angel from displaying her talents, why can't you do the same?

Happy birthday to me!

It was my birthday yesterday. I almost forgot it when I received a red packet and heard, "Happy Birthday" from my mother in the morning. But I was not suprised because there has been no family reunion since I was a kid. So I felt nothing when I thanked her. I still have not opened it till today. Even now, I'm not interested in how much there is in the red packet.

The word,"Birthday" began to disappear in my mind as I was doing the works in school. Perhaps I was workacholic. However, it came back in the evening. That's when I began to do the art for myself - my own present.

My own present! It's more than enough.

I did not intend to write the message on it after I completed it because I did not wish to let my classmates to know that it was my birthday. However, it slipped my mind when some went out for dinner and the rest were too obessed in their works. So I wrote it down. However, the ones who went out for dinner, returned with the packets of food. By then, I crossed my fingers, wishing that they would not read it. But I felt that they would find out sooner or later. So I left it open and worked on my homework. Of course, they had found out later and wished me happy birthday. I received the hug from my brother. Yes, these are more than enough for me. I want nothing but Lord Jesus Christ.

Today, I told myself that I had died and was born again to new life where I would grow my root in Christ. Yes, no more "Jin Cheng" within me because he had died.

Life's colourful

That is my wooden palette for acrylic paints. I would give it a title, "Life's colourful". It's certainly true because there are beautiful things everywhere. I want to go out and see the beautiful scenes like the ones in Vatican and Japan etc. Also, it reminds me of the Beatitudes (Matthew 5:3-11). Although waiting for two years sounds too long, I'm willing to wait for the baptism to come. I wonder where I would be baptised. In Singapore or Japan? Only God knows. It does not matter because God is with us all the time and everywhere. Time will reveal the future. *nodnod*

Artworks of the week!

It's really exciting to recall all my works. (n_n) b

Ink Painting

Acrylic Painting - My first work!

Our own galary in the class (For fun) - Done by five friends and me.

My own galary at home! (>_@) b

Life's fun and challenging although it's sometimes tough. I think it's easy for me to stay positive and happy when I face the difficulties such as emotions and works etc. Maybe my room will be filled with all my art works later. it sounds like the studio. I read somewhere that possessing the studio is one of the artists' dreams. I think I'm one of them. I admit that I want to own the studio in my home. Well, it does not matter if I cannot enjoy the richness of the life on the earth because I know that I will have everything from following Jesus Christ. I believe that my life will be marvelous and excellent with God in heaven. I must persevere with my burdens on the narrow path in life.

My own soup - First time!

Yesterday, it was just after midnight. That's when the special day ended and I was hungry. I decided to cook myself a meal. It was going to be soup. Of course, it was my first time, cooking the soup! Here are some photos I took. I wanted to record my experience in case I might forget it due to my busy schedule.

That's when I forgot to cook the rice in the steamer. Of course, I was in panic when I went and prepared the rice quickly. How absentminded I am. Am I really getting old? I often forgot something although I did remembering all the details. I'm worried that I may break the promises this way. I hope that it will not happen again.

Finally, it was done! (^_^) v

When I had first taste, I could not believe it. It tasted just great. Good enough for the beginner like me.

Ingredients (Vegetables) : Vegetables, carrots, tomatoes, garlics and onions.

Ingredients (Meat and others) : Hot dogs, water, chicken cube and fishcake

Another passion

It reminds me of the veggie pizza. ( ^ __ ^ ) Haha...



This meal was cooked by none other than myself! Maybe I was so hungry that I desired to cook on my own. I was really hungry that I had wolfed down two big bowls of rice. Same size as in the picture above. I'm not sure whether there is passion of cooking in my blood besides the arts but my interest in cooking is really in large extent. I can't say that I'm more interested in cooking than the arts. Maybe I can afford to be a chef in my free times. So I think working as the chef in Japan is the best opinion because the discipline over there is most strict and very demanding. I hope that my judgement is right. Yeah, I want to work as the artist and chef over there. If possible, I can pick up wrestling as well. I know it sounds somehow silly or tough, but they are the careers anyway. My choices are for me alone to choose. Really look forward to Japan.

(>_@) d *Cheers!*

A hope

"It is I. Do not be afraid." ~ John 6:20

It is one of my schoolworks. Of course, I used the photoshop to create it. This work is based on the phrase, John 6:20 in the bible. Because I like this work, I shared with the others. I certainly hope that it may lighten everyone's day. Please take it for yourself and share it with others who need healing more than us.

May God bless you. Take care.

~ Michael Gabriel Goo

A troublesome pain

I'm taking a break now. A very short one. Although I'm in school at this late hour, I can't do much more works because of pain in my left shoulder. When I slightly lift my arm, the pain acts up crazy. Perhaps it is due to the heavy loads in my bag. I admit that I'm a nerdy one who would bring everything to school. And maybe I become weaker due to the lack of the trainings. Oh no, I have become an old man. *sigh* I wish I would have the car now. Then, I would not have to carry the heavy loads from place to place. I guess it's normal since I inspire to be worthy Catholic. I remember that Jesus suffered the great pain for us. So my pain is nothing compared to his sufferings. And it is said that all the Christians must face and accept all the trials before them so that they may be worthy like the real gold which don't melt in the furnace. All right. I must bear with it till the end. I'm sure that something good or even excellent is waiting for me in the heaven. *grin*

Holy Spirit, help me to persevere through Christ our Lord. Amen.

A dream

As I was sinking into my dream, I found myself greeting an elderly friend. At the same time, I was bidding a farewell to her as I saw her head towards her hushand's car with the shopping bags in her hands. Then, I moved onwards. I did not know where I was going but I just followed the direction of the path. Eventually, I found myself in the train. It was not really crowded but there were a lot of people everywhere. Strangely, I saw the communion going on. I was not sure how many priests ahead. But I saw only two so far. When one signalled the crowd to follow him as he was leaving, I found myself, following them. When we passed by the shop, my eye caught something on display. I cannot remember what it is but I took a while to admire it. Afterwards, I began to follow them. I realized that I was slightly far away from the crowd. So I sped up in my motion. While moving, I was looking around. Everything seemed to be like the places in Japan. Was I really in Japan, I wondered? Everything was similar to Japan. Even the notice was written in Japanese language. Except the one which was in English. That was when the crowd entered the building. It was written, "Mentfort Sec.." What a strange name. But it seemed to be like my secondary school's name. When I was in the building, I saw the crowd was going up on the staircase. That staircase seemed to be strange. It was in spiral shape and red in colour. By then, I was so far away from the crowd. I tried to run to catch up with them but I felt that I was floating and unable to move around. Then, I woke up.

I wonder whether it would tell me that I would be going to Japan after the graduation. I believe that dreams are the symbols of the future. Long time ago, when I lost my bag, my dream showed me that the cleaner came out from the toilet with the bag which looked similar to my bag. The next day, my teacher told me that my bag was found in the toilet. I was taken by the surprise. Is it really a symbol of the future? Again, two years ago, I saw a man resembling Jesus in my dream. The place where I met that man, was in the darkness because everything was black except that man. My friend told me that it could be a divine one or my dream telling me to spend more time on my religion or perhaps in other ways. By then, I was ensure that it was the symbol of the future because after I saw that man, I began to sink deeper in the Catholicism, seeking God. I believe that my dream tried to tell me that Jesus is the light in the darkness and I did not need to be troubled or frightened because it is written in John 6:20, "It is I. Do not be afraid." That's what Jesus said. I'm confident that I would be going to Japan after the graduation, of course, with the help of Holy Spirit.

Recalling the Passion of Christ

Being as busy as a bee, I was hoping that it would help to keep me away from being tempted to sin. Although it worked to the large extent, I am still weak and fragile which the evil can break with just one hit. Of course, it's very dangerous when the feeling turns into the boredom. Not long ago, I was watching very short film where Jesus was being crucified. As Jesus was suffering all kinds of pains, the emotion of sorrow stirred up in my heart and the tears were streaming down my cheeks. Jesus never failed to spice my life up. Even when I was a child which meant I was too young to understand the meaning of life, I never failed to cry at the scene of crucified Jesus. I wished that everyone especially my family would believe in Jesus and would be converted to be Catholics. By then, we would have peace and love within us. Now, I'm swimming around the sea of emotions because I sinned not long ago. I hope that it would be different from last Monday onwards. I admit that God had changed me a lot. I also agree that the sufferings, hardships and experiences were the part of God's plans. Without them, we would never grow up and become mature. I really am glad that I was born deaf although it had often put me in the disadvantage. Otherwise, I would never understand the love.

Father, forgive me for my sins. In the name of Jesus Christ, have mercy on me. I should love you above all the things. With your help, I firmly intend to do penance, to sin no more and to avoid whatever leads me to sin. I must remember our Saviour, Lord Jesus Christ suffered and died for us on the cross. Holy Spirit, help me. I ask this through Christ our Lord. Amen.

All right. I have been inspired a lot to work harder to achieve my desires. I believe that I would be able to survive in Japan after the graduation in two years' time because I know God would be there with me! (^_^) Alleluia forever and ever! Amen.

Refreshing determination

Just one week had completed and I was satisfied enough. And my heart is burning fiercely to achieve the good results. My mind is not in the search for the perfection of everything. Just good results are enough for me. However, when I saw one girl produce the arts works which looked exactly like the master piece, I was determined to do the same. But I desired to perfect my faith in Christ. No other thing can replace God in my heart. I must not lose my stand again. Dear God, please watch out for me and keep me in the faith. Never let me put to the test but deliver me from evil one. Please do the same to my friends, acquaintances, classmates and strangers. I ask this through Christ our Lord. Amen.

I must remember my goals. I must do it that I'm able to go to Japan to pursue further studies after the graduation. As well, I must keep myself fit and strong so that I'm able to take up wrestling over there. Of course, I won't stop playing rugby here. Holy Spirit, come and fill me the fire of your love. Lead me to the truth and light. Not the earthly desires. I ask this through Christ out Lord. Amen

Comments on school days

These school days really keep me busy that I have to shorten my sleeping time. But I'm glad that I choose the diploma in Fine Arts because it's worth it. I can see that I really can't keep up with the schedules because during one lesson, my class had to draw 50 sketches. I was ended up as only one who finished the 50 works. So I decide to give all my best and work harder. I'm even happier because God has been there with me all the time. Usually, my works were like a child's works. But now, i can see that my works have been improved recently. Thanks be to God. Alleluia forever and ever. Amen.

My lips and my heart will always sing the praise of your name forever and ever. Amen.

Well, another thought struck at my head. I wonder whether I should take up this job. I read that it pays really well. I could not believe my eyes when I found out. But it's very inconvenient because I have to transport the coffins with dead people inside. I thought that my parents would be against it because i knew that they are very superstitious. But this morning, I asked my mother about it. To my surprise, she had no objection. All right. I'll check it out later. God, please guide me along. When I have taken up this job, please protect me from evil spirit. I ask this through Christ our Lord. Amen.

Second Day of the School

Just waking up from a short nap, I'm still feeling drowsy and sleepy. As well, I seem not to be well. The night before yesterday, I did not get a wink of sleep as I was feeling so excited and looked forward to school. Yesterday, it was exactly the first day of the school. I went there early because I expected that it would be crowded. There was a strange happening. When I reached the school from the church after the morning mass, I was sweating profusely. Perhaps, it was a hot day since I wore all black. It did not happen before. Maybe I was not feeling well. Who knows? It did not matter. At least, I enjoyed the lessons for the first day. Though I had met some familiar faces, we did not get to share the same class. However to my pleasant surprise, there was my church acquaintance and she had the same class with me. God had really answered my prayer as I was looking forward to meet Catholics in the class. It seemed that we were only Catholics in the class. Everyone looked friendly when I greeted them and introduced myself through the writings.

During the first lesson, it seemed to be more like the print making. I found it fun and challenging though I was feeling stressed. Perhaps I was too tired from the lack of sleep that I felt the attack of the stress on my body. Fortunately, everyone was helpful as well as the lecturer. After the lesson, we were having the computer lessons. We were taught how to use the photoshop in the Apple PCs. It was so fun. I was glad that I was able to use the photoshop after the lesson. However, I don't have money to buy the original photoshop. I hope that I'll be able to raise money as soon as possible.

I would like to give thanks to God for He has done excellent things for me through Christ our Lord. Honour, power and glory are yours, Abba Father, Lord Jesus Christ and Holy Spirit, One God forever and ever. Amen.

An inspiring song of worship and praise

This morning, I woke up with slight fever and cold. By then, I prayed to God for healing. Miraculously, after a while, the fever vanished and cold seemed to be less irritated. Thank you, Almighty God through Christ our Lord who lives and reigns now and forever. Amen.

Just last night, I was mugging among the songs through the Internet for the inspiration. After some times, I came across this song. It was none other than the song of praise and worship, "Gloria in Excelsis Deo". It was just a common song of worship and praise in the Sundays' masses. I chose it to be my favourite song because it always inspired me a lot and created the peace within me. There was another feeling for it but I did not know how to describe it. Perhaps it is the joy and love, isn't it? So I spent a bit of my time to memorize this song and practise it for few times. Indeed, it's a powerful song to me. Amen.

'Gloria in Excelsis Deo"
Glory to God in the highest
And peace to His people on earth
Lord God, Heavenly King, Almighty God and Father
We worship You
We give You thanks
We praise You for Your Glory

Lord Jesus Christ, only Son of the Father
Lord God, Lamb of God
You take away the sins of the world
Lord, have mercy on us
You are seated at the right hand of the Father,
Receive our prayer

For You alone are the Holy One
For You alone are the Lord
For You alone are the Most High
Jesus Christ, with the Holy Spirit
In the Glory of God the Father

Amen

New resolutions for this year, 2008

Good day! Finally, I got the chance to write down the blog after some times of being unable to get access to Internet. Last year was most memorable year in my life because I was experiencing the joy of love by then. It was given to me by God. Thank you, Almighty Father through Christ our Lord who lives and reigns now and forever. Amen. I put some efforts on the works of God's will and was glad to see that it worked out well. Also, I shared my testimony with others in the Charismatic Mass and it seemed to have motivated all who had heard my testimony. I rejoiced to God because of that. I was hoping that I would not have sinned again afterwards. But unfortunately, I lost the battle just now. I will try again to perverse and rely on God with all my mind, heart and strength. My God, in the name of Jesus Chrsit, have mercy on me. Please continue to protect me from evil ones. I ask this through Christ our Lord. Amen. Nehemiah retreat, Christmas Eve pagaent, Celebration of New Year and Charismatic Mass were most exciting events in my life. I hope that I would experience that joy of love again. As well, I sincerely hope that the Lord will open my ears and heal me so that I can hear. From today onwards, I will spend more time with God. Holy Spirit, be my guide all the time and never let the dragon be my guide. I ask this through Christ our Lord. Amen.

Here are the new resolutions I made for myself:

1) Keep myself holy and faithful by holding fast to God's words, commandments and scriptures.
2) To do whatever is most to God's glory.
3) To do my duty for the good of mankind in general and the good of all his Church.
4) Until I die, not to act as if I were on my own, but entirely and altogether God's.
5) No more SIN for me. Should be kept pure and holy in mind, heart and body.
6) Work harder to earn more money.
7) Save money as much as possible.
8) Perfect my faith in Christ.
- Read the Gospel daily
- Pray with rosary daily
- Attend the masses everyday if I can
- Share the Good News with others
9) Put more serious efforts in the schoolworks.
10) Play less to reduce the waste of time.
11) Train harder to keep fit and strong
12) Be careful not to hurt the relationship with others.
13) Learn Japanese for my future in Japan

Dear God, please help to remind me of those plans with your Holy Spirit so that I may not offend against you. Please forgive me for I had offended against you as in the name of Jesus Christ, I forgive those who have sinned against me. I ask this through Christ our Lord. Amen.