The storm is lifting.

I was having the busy life. That means I had to get my mother to fetch me to school although we are still not on good term. I admit that I played too much as the games on the Internet are very addictive. I can't help but get myself updated and played them. Perhaps I should stop and spend more time on the gym. I have not been very productive recently. I even missed the school on few days. I guess those games make me lazy. Mm.. I will try to eliminate the games from my schedule so that I can have more time on arts and the church. Moreover, I'm returning to my former part time job. I guess it would not hurt to work while juggling the school and gym. I hope my plan for renting the room near the school, would improve my performance and spirituality. I have to do it because my family are against me and I have to stand on my own feet. I do not care whether my parents would object to my plans because we do not share the same thought. It is not really easy to communicate with them as we have language barrier. I wonder if it is God's plans. Perhaps I will ask Him this weekend. Now, the stress of the works seems to be lifting. That means I can hit the gym with the full force! I'm having the study trip to Kukup next week. Hopefully, it will turn out good as I can have new explorations over there.

Should I relax?

A classmate had lost her mind and made a scene in the school. I heard that she has some serious problems which I do not know. Perhaps she was under the heavy pressure. But there is nothing I can help but to pray for her. I'm worrying about another friend who seems to be troubled by some problems over a long period of time. From those situations, my instinct is telling me that I should relax as I do feel the intense pressure of the school and life this time. But I have been training for the competitions. And I would be fine as the Lord is with me all the time.

Gong Xi Fa Cai! Happy New Year!

Although I am having the public holidays, I don't really feel good or in high spirit. Perhaps it was the stress from the school. Yes, it is really for real. The very first time I'm feeling intense pressure. Although my friend told me to relax and even invited me to his celebration, I politely turned his invitation down as I have some personal stuffs to settle. Yes, I admit that I'm workaholic and I want to finish the works as soon as possible. Right now, I wish that the school would open on public holidays as I need to finish the works by next week. I hope that I can finish the works in few hours' time after the public holidays. If I'm correct, today is the first time that the rain falls since the first day of the year 2009. Hopefully, the rain will not fall the next day as I want to go to the scenery and draw up some pictures.

The beginning

School is going to start tomorrow. My mood is not good today due to some personal stuffs but I will have to give all my trust in God for He does everything for me. So I am going to work harder for Him. This post of my friend's blog really inspires me to the large extent. I don't know whether it can help you unless you are Christian or Catholic. But here it is: http://auburnskye.blogspot.com/2009/01/when-your-sails-no-longer-have-wind.html

To judge or not to judge?

Since the convection to Catholicism almost three years ago, the reminder often shows itself in my head. It said, "Never judge others. Otherwise, you will be judged seriously by God" as Jesus said, "Stop judging, that you may not be judged" - Matthew 7:1 But I came to learn more about the judgement during my reflection yesterday. Yes, indeed we should never judge the others. But Jesus reminded us, "Beware of false prophets, who come to you in sheep's clothing, but underneath are ravenous wolves." -Matthew 7:15 It also requires the judging as Our Daily Bread stated. We need to be able to discern truth from the falsehood. Further, Jesus said, "By their fruits, you will know them" - Matthew 7:16 So we have to judge the people including ourselves by the quality of the fruits we produce. Often, we judge the people in the term of the appearance. For example, we would think that the people are bad since they look like the baddies or ugly. Likewise, we think that they are good since they look like innocent or good looking. Not just that but we often find the faults in others too. Yesterday morning, I was in the lift with the two guys in the office building. In the lift, one of them pressed against the inner door handle with his hand so that we could enter into the lift. He was still holding the door while we were already in the lift. Then, without any thought, I pressed the fourth floor button. The door suddenly closed but that man again pressed the inner door handle to open it. By then, he was staring at me with the anger written on his face as another man came in. I really did not know that he was coming as I did not see him. This is the example. We often find the faults in other people without realizing the whole truth. We need to slow down and think before we confirm our judgment on others as Jesus said, "Why do you notice your splinter in your brother's eye, but do not perceive the wooden beam in your own eye? How can you say to your brother, 'Let me remove the splinter from your eye,' while the wooden beam is in your eye? You hypocrite, remove the wooden beam from your eye first; then you will see clearly to remove the splinter from your brother's eye." - Matthew 7:3-5
So it is okay to judge the others as long as you are careful and understand the whole matter. As Our Daily Bread stated, it must be judged by the heavenly values - the fruit of the Spirit produced within us - love, joy and peace. So I hope that everyone who reads it, will change their own way of the judgement on others. Be slow to judge others and quick to judge yourself.

Thanks be to God for the guide He teaches me. Amen.

Happy Birthday to Elvis Presley

I was not the great fan of Elvis Presley who is having his birthday today. But I like his song, "Love me tender" which I used to create my own "comedy" song for some amusements. I come to know about him through the ghost story which mentions that the couple met his ghost singing at the hotel entrance. Even Our Daily Bread mentions his birthday.

I was frying the chicken thighs for the dinner. I don't know whether it is good for me because of its excess fats. But at least I had consumed a lot of proteins. I'm running out of the supplements. So I can't wait for the coming Chinese New Year. Look like I have succeeded waking up in the very early morning. I also passed the test of not taking the buses to the MRT station since the first day of this year although I had taken the bus to home few times.

Am I ready yet?

I thought that I would feel happy as school days are approaching. But my mood is not dancing with the joy instead. I wonder if it is giving me the pressure. Otherwise, I would be very healthy and able to sleep well now. I guess I need to lead the holy life again. This time, I will be very serious about my religion because I realize that I cannot live without the Christ! My room is still messy and dusty as before. Anyway, I was shopping in the Mustafa yesterday morning. It was the great bargain as those items cost even cheaper than other shopping centres. However, the staffs' attitudes were not good. But it does not matter as I enjoyed myself over there. I guess that yesterday was the good time as I slept for at least 8 hours after some shopping. I guess I have to repeat it today. Oh no, I'm not referring to the shopping but the workout at the gym. Mm... I think I will go to Mustafa again later.