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Christmas was over, and I suddenly lost my eagerness in my daily life. Where did this desolation come from? I did receive some presents, but still I did not find the joy in them. Nevertheless, I had good times though my energy battery was at its limit almost daily during those months. Work suddenly became a part of my life without any notice, and made it almost impossible for me to catch up with because it took up much of my time. Thankfully, there are God, Mummy Mary and all my Friends, helping me in my difficult times. Sometimes, God sent me the unexpected miracles and my beloved ones to soothe my weary body which strangely lost all its strength and power. But after some reflections, I was glad to become frail and powerless because I could surrender everything to God and Mummy Mary. Without Iesu et Maria, I do not know where to go. Right now, I am laughing at my stupidity because not long ago I nearly messed up a date with a wonderful person. I guess miscommunication is always and has been the part of my life. But at least she had her own happiness in her life. Despite being disappointed slightly, I was happy for her."Love is always patient and kind; it is never jealous; love is never boastful or conceited; it is never rude or selfish; it does not take offence, and is not resentful. Love takes no pleasure in other people's sins but delights in the truth; it is always ready to excuse, to trust, to hope, and to endure whatever comes. Love does not come to an end." (1 Corinthians 13:4-8)
I confess that I am disappointed over my too little time for prayers and spiritual readings, but God has reminded me that He is there, watching my every move and accompanying me all the time because He knows that I need Him. Recently, I was at the extraordinary Mass. I remembered feeling my heart tingling with eagerness and excitement as the priest elevated the Most Holy Body, and Most Precious Blood of the Lamb. When I received the Host into my heart, my eyes gently drew the darkness onto my vision as they closed their lids. There, I saw a glowing crucifix. My mind proclaimed that it was a true treasure of my life. I guess I feel happy at that moment. Now, I understand the joy of Blessed Mother Mary and Saint Joseph when they received the Holy Infant Iesu into their lives.
It does not matter whether I am blind, deaf, handicapped, immobilized, or stupid. This is my greatest gift of Christmas: a complete surrender to God who has enthroned my heart as His Holy Temple. Praise the Lord, my soul. All my being, praise His Holy Name, and never forget how kind He is.
"Our Lord needs from us neither great deeds nor profound thoughts. Neither intelligence nor talents. He cherishes simplicity." - Saint Therese of Lisieux
