"Harden not your heart"

Earlier, over the conversation with my classmate, I heard that they all will be going for the trip after the assessment day. I was struggling with the hard feelings. I even developed more distrust against my parents. I was supposed to go with them but my parents chose not to hear me out. I wanted to go with them because they are all my favourite classmates. Perhaps close friends. We had been sharing the hardship and joy since the first day of our gang formed unconsciously. It had been a while since I abandoned my old friends and started the new life long time ago. Perhaps the reason I felt close with them is because we shared the same passion. Later, after some reflection, I realized there's something bad about me. It's the pride of the feeling. On the second thought, perhaps it was the blessing that I didn't go with them because if I go, my relationship with my parents may grow worse. Even the same for God. Again, I thought that I could go on the trip when I study oversea after the graduation. I could even earn more than the worth of the trip by staying here.

A night in friend's house

Yesterday, I returned from my classmate's house. Yes, it was the very first time I stayed over the friend's house. Not just me but also the three gorgeous girls. Cool but we were serious doing our group work - video experiment in the middle of the night. We were supposed to do my role in the morning but we were so worn out that we fell asleep from the naps. So we had no choice but to postpone it to other day. It was fun at all because we were discussing our ideas and feelings. Of course, we did relaxing during the breaks. Anyway, before we went to his house, I heard the shock news from my female classmate regarding our mutual friend. But I accepted it instead of worrying over it because life always have the complicated things no matter what we do. I wished that I did bringing the camera with me so that I could pose with the gorgeous girls! *laughing* But it does not matter as I have the memory in my head. It's already enough. I got this feeling when I was about to doze off to the sleep. I felt that I might stay over the female friend's house in the future. Just two of us. Oh no, why did I think like that? Hopefully, I would not think wildly. Or perhaps I could invite some more friends. You know what I mean. My classmate and I both were the last persons to leave house. I know that we were rude as we didn't bade farewell. But there's nobody in sight except our friend. He's still sleeping like the log. As we didn't want to disturb his peaceful time, we left.

When I reached home just before the noon, I was not tired at all although I had few hours of sleep in my friend's house. But I went to the bed after doing the chores and the shower. I wanted to go and work out at the gym but I was too lazy. Perhaps it was due to the sleep. Even now, I'm still sleepy. All right, it looks like the assessments are coming. I need to cut down the relaxing times.

It has been long time since the last blog.

It sounds as if I was having the holidays before I created this post. I guess it is okay to have a break for everything we do because it can comfort the stress a bit. It is exactly true because I'm in good mood now. Looks like life is changing from time to time. Perhaps we are growing up from our experiences because I find that I had learnt a lot of valuable lessons from what I had done. Perhaps it's the excellent blessing for me to be unable to hear although I have been wanting to hear like the normal people since the childhood. Now, I'm beginning to think that I've changed because I no longer use most popular activities like chatting online, Friendster etc. Maybe you can say that I'm mature as I'm working on the serious matters. Or maybe old fashioned because I prefer to keep it simple and plain. Some of my classmates are going to have the study trip this coming holiday. To New York. I wish that I can join them but unfortunately, I'm not rich. Maybe it's best for me to stay here as I can earn a lot of money than the spending. The study trip can wait because I may be having the trip when I study oversea later. Look like that I enjoy being with my current gang a lot. Hopefully, I can make time for the churches in my daily schedule because something cropped up every time I wanted to visit the church. I have confirmed my decisions on the careers. Those are; sculptor, bodybuilder and wrestler. Although I do have the plans with my friend to set up the business, I don't have the confidence that it would go well because we don't have the experience and even time for it. She sounded as if she wanted to do her own desires although she was very keen to do the business with me. I hope that I will see the familiar faces who share the same passions again after the graduation.